Flushed of spirit, vagueness sets in. He tries to concentrate on where he is and what he needs to do but he feels himself drifting. A sense of floating out of his body, no-one or nothing to draw him back in and as he looks down on what appears to be an empty shell, he wonders what draws him away.
Is this not where he wants to be? has he finally moved on from what he thought he wanted or has fatigue just finally set in?
Each time he floats further away. The further he moves lighter he feels. Sometimes hoping he could break completely away, leave it all behind and float away. To not feel the density his body holds. He feels the pressure building time and time again, he grows tired. The more tired he gets, the more he tunes out and the further he floats away.
He wants to feel light, to leave what weighs him down and move on. His spirit holds such love, such passion that is wanting to be released but he finds he no longer has the energy to release it... He needs a change, a break.
He draws himself back in. Reality is where he needs to be. He knows at the moment he seems blocked to the point of exhaustion but he has found the release valve before and he knows he will find it again. Reality is what he wants, he is where he needs to be and when the pressure is off he will be free once more.
I hope you find the release you need - lately I've noticed a pulling away from you - where you want to be a place, but you aren't there - and you can't seem to trap real long enough to put up roots. xoxox
ReplyDeleteShane this completely sums up my life right now too, God it sucks but it will get better I swear...
ReplyDeleteOn a positive note, Pope Whatever is going back to doing Latin masses.....YAWWNNNN...