Reward? Recognise? Pacify?

Yesterday I was told for the next 2 months I will be leader, so why was I not jumping for joy? Why after all this time was I finding it hard to show excitement for the opportunity? Have I finally lost the passion or was it that I could not see past the fact I was taking over the reigns from someone who has also fought so hard. Maybe I read too much into it, after all it’s been a draining few weeks and I am very tired, so very tired.

I have worked long and hard, not for a title or a pay rise but because it’s what I do. It’s definitely a little kick in the guts that some people feel that I have been given this opportunity for non deserving reasons, maybe even just to shut me up or to stop me from resigning. To these people I say; “you don’t know me at all.”

I take every opportunity for what it is and I will put my all into it. I like to develop myself I like to help others develop as well, I will even help anyone who wants the role any way I can… after all; I pushed for this role to remain a caretaker role to give opportunity to others. I also told Mr TL that whenever i get opportunity, I like to know it’s due to my abilities and my work ethic and not for any other reason.

To anyone who thinks otherwise; prove me wrong! and to those people who support me and are happy for me, I am greatful.

I now look forward to the next 2 months and am eager be motivated and to prove it to myself I can do this. I have massive shoes to fill Mr S and I hope I can continue what you started; I tilt my hat to you for your leadership and professional attitude you have kept about you at all times, even the dark ones.

I have a great group of people to work with and hope I do a great job for them over the 2 month challenge.